bullcraap**

espanol

2006-02-23T03:05:00.000+08:00

i've been here for a 4 weeks now in schl.. seems pretty fast. missing ppl back at home n all..
n finally..i can learn spanish! its really nice. i love it. haha.. buttt load ass hard work!
haha.

rite now, the situation at home.. in NJ.. is aiight. i mean..though lo maldigo under my breath sometimes when he says smthg sacarstic n stuff.. but yea. he's my uncle anyway.. ¡maldición!

n sam ..sam..
u better take care aiight! though i cant send u long emails all the time but i still think of you.. i'll email u when i can yea. oh damn! i haven email grandfather yet!! haha.

anyways,i've been trying to learn spanish.. its fun..but loads to learn!
in schl rite now..chilling for awhile..

bored..

damn..

adios.

nat.

in 10 mins!

2006-02-16T02:12:00.000+08:00

haha. my swimming timing for lifeguarding course on tuesday..improved by 2 mins!! cldnt believe it..but i did it! hahha.
hmmm, on vday..no date. but ohwell. me n jeri spent the whole day in schL! after lifeguarding.. i studied a little while..n then later. we went to the gym to work out.. we spent lik 30 mins doing cardio. man! it felt gooooood! haha.. n for the whole of this week, me n jeri wanna eat healthy..haha. well, at least slighty healthier than last week.. man! last week was . . . oh.. no shit man. i out on lik 1.5kg. haha. didnt know what the hell i ate. haha.

i love schl.. better than home.. warmer n more condusive too!! to study..of course!
n guess wad!! my mother. . . still does not believe me. fuck! lik she called aunt diana n lik ask her to check on me in the damn fucking library.. wad am i?? a kid? fuck! like come on man! i've matured! fuck. n great! shes coming.. shit...imagine like alrdy overseas she ask ppl to check on me. . wad more when she comes here.. she'll probably wait at every class door..till i finish.. make sure i dun talk... wad the fuck!!? its rubbish man! i mean yea i know shes worried. but wad the hell! its a damn college! no mother comes to check on her damn kid. fuck. even aunt diana said that she shldnt do that. im like.. fuck shit hole!

ass man! wadever..

i hope they blarby dont come over..

i mean like..who on the damn blardy earth wants thier parent to hawk on them all the damn fucking day.. jus leave me alone!
piss me off man!

so fuct up.

snowing!!

2006-02-12T04:44:00.000+08:00

wow!! its snowing now!! at this very moment! n im listening to avenged sevenfold..awesome music!! unholy confessions..love that song! haha.. anywyas, im taking this lifeguard coarse in schl n it requires us to swim 20 laps n thread water for 20 mins before we enter the lifeguard team.. n i reali thought i cldnt do it..but i did! n lik i swam the 20 laps in 12mins!! haha is that kewl or is that kewl!!hahahah..

rite now..a snow storm is on its way.. i thank the lord for not letting it snow when i come here.. cuz by jan..it suppose to be all white..but fortunately is not.. so i can get use to the cold. im pretty much used to it... i hope..hahah. well,its reali a pretty sight..n as im typing now..the temp is dropping real fast! omg!! i jus looked outside my window..n..wow.. reali. its gonna be all white sooon! hahah. gotta get out there n feel the snow man! hahah.

then tml we are all going to snow board! yay!! kewl!! how kewl is that!! hahah.
rite now is lik going below 0 degrees. i can feel it.. my hands are getting bitey! ooooo..
hold on..gotta go get jacket n gloves!! luckily imi wearing socks n spongebob bedroom shoes! hahahah.. i love my spongebob shoes!! hahahah

-brb-

k..back from clothing up.. now listening to my chemical romance. drowning lessons. nice.
well, the placer is whiter..

anyway, enough of the snow..

so i went out with jeri, zach, landon n ginger.. for my bday outing.
me n jeri went to the gym to work out first.. n lik short after, zach n landon came.. yea. but the gym guy at the receptionist came over and told us that we had to pay 15 bucks or get out in 5 mins. me n jeri were lik..wad the hell... we wanted to talk to the boss cuz he was there today..but on other days, he wldnt do that.. damnfuct!!! shit hole! anyways, so we went to a near by shop. i forgot what its called but lik we went in n pretended to take a top to try..n we were in our gym clothes n everything.. haha..
we spent lik 10 mins plus in there..while landon n zach waited outside for us.. hahha.. it was hilarious.. cuz they kept on calling us but we didnt come out... but when we did.. they cldnt say anything.. hahaha.

we had lik a make over or smthg in the changing room.. hahahha.. so,anyway, we went to TGI FRIDAYS. i love that diner.. its kewl. n the food is....... yummms!! then after that we went to the mall..n visited VICTORIA SECRETS!!! it is...wow. love it..
jeri wanna work there! haha.. then can get special discount! anyways, later we went to watch the cronicles of narnia. awesome. enjoyed it.
then after,we went our separate ways home.

hmmmm,it wasnt that great of a birthday celebration.. but i enjoyed it very much. =]
n my mom allowed me to get a camera for my birthday!! oh yea.. =]

signing out

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nat.

In schl

2006-01-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

currently in the schl library rite now..
gotta wait for jeri until she comes...

yesterday,jeris family and i went to new york city,china town!! it was kewl.. though the buildings not veri sightly..haha.. but overall..i had fun. n lik to get to new york frm jersey.. we had to go through this underwater tunnel..pretty awesome.. haha. i wanted to get a chong siam there but didnt have the chance..

anyway, college life is reali different frm sec schl.. here..in a day u can have lik onli one lesson n ur done for the day.. like me..=] gotta practice some math..do a little reading..n we hit the mall!
going out with jeri and zac. hah. zac has a reali fun personality..he always make us laugh by acting like a girl.. dumb..yea i know.. but damn funny! hahah.. jeri would be putting pictures up soon.. haha..

so far..im pretty much enjoying myself..except for the cold.. last nite it was likl -1 degrees.. n the winter has yet to come.... =/ hopefully i'll get use to it soon.

today in eng class, i was kinda nervous.. n im like the onli chinese there..
obviously..the class was quiet..onli prof. willer, my eng teacher.. was talking.
he gave us this assignment to do.. abt an ad.. to write abt my opinions abt it.. luckily mine wasnt that hard.

here in the library..ppl sleep,surf.. wad else.. i dunno..but the library is biggg.. nice and quiet too.. ahha.. tml i have sociology and lifeguard!! kewl rite.. =] cant wait!

ciao for now.

bat.

BRRRRR!!

2006-01-24T05:40:00.002+08:00

wow! its been a long long time since i have updated this thing reali.. right now im in new jersey..freezzing my butti off!! brrrr.. well,still getting use to it. loads of things to do.. miss my friends back in s'pore.. esp my family,cousins,church peeeps! and or course my cali ppl!!
hmmm.. reali going to miss those times.. Jo!! i miss u so so much..

had my placement test done..it was pretty good..

jus hoope to get use to the whether.. =/ n like, i wear 6 damn layers to sleep man! like its that coldd!! at nite it can drop to like 0 degrees man! or -2 degrees! crazy rite!

hmm,gotta go..my finger tips are freeezzzing up!

P.R.O.M

2005-11-29T14:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday was awesome. i had so much fun..dressing up n stuff.. all of my friends were beautifully dressed. anyway,after prom.. some of my friends n i wanted to watch saw II. i know its reali bloody n..eeee. buti jus wanted to watch smthg.. so i jus tag along. but when we got to cine..the movies were limited.. sheesh! n my feet were dying!! gosh! but we had no choice. so we tried lido. they went ahead but i didnt. i was too tired.. so i went to the hotel. with vL, estee, claud, pei hwa, poh lin, yan qi, i- iee, de qi, michelle n myself. i had a hell of a time.

i came back this morning. but b4 i came home i met up with al..see al to work/ al's pretty kewl..
i thought when i came home..i cld sleep..but my mom said i cldnt. cuz i had to do hse work..mop n vuccum!! wad the hell! i jus did it yesterday man!! sheeeeesh! but i have no choice but to do it.if not i cant go out.

cant wait for my interview at california fitness tml at 4pm/ hahaha/hope i can get the job. so i can start my job n get a damn goooood work out. wanna get my bod toned/

i wanted glen to help me.but oh well,things got complicated.so i said no in the end/
but he's reali goood i sure/ he'll get me in shape in lik no time. hahaha.
well,i'll jus take things a step at a time/ n see how things go.
n gosh!! i've put on weight man./ hell yea! damnn! gotta lose 'em!

n to my awesome JERI! i love u sweeeetie!! miss u lik hell! hahah.
hope to see u soooon babe. i reali hope u can come down this yr end/

k,gtg do my damn hse work.. chaos!

finally!!!

2005-11-24T10:20:00.000+08:00

finally my exams are shit over!!

did the best i could.

so its all up to him...above.

hahaha.anyways,prom is jus arnd the corner.on man!! hahaha/

n i got allllllll my stuff alrdy/

hmmm.. but u know i still dun have my blardy freedom n stuff/n like this morning my mom jus told us//no no no..u dun go out today/ im like u said after the exams u can go out all u want/ but now..shes going back on her fucking word/ BITCH! cant stand her/wish she was gone or smthg! fuck..shes domn fucking irritating. /wish i can stay on my own..then i wldnt have to hear her fucking nagging/

anyway,during the exam period..wa.never worked so hard in my life man/ haha.. n i didnt exercise for some time n i gained back so fast! shitt! hahah.. but im gonna start working out again..determination baby. haa.

man! he's reali cute in his own way/ hahaha.. i mean though i know him for onli a short period of time.. but we can reali click/ hmm.. but i guess not as well yet/

hey jeri baby!!!!!! i miss u so so so muucch! wannnnnna kiss u man! hahahha.. we shld yea! hahahhahahaha. anyhow,thanke so so much for supporting me all the way! i love u baby/. though we are so far apart. but i know we'll always be together. heeee.. sound lik we're together huh..haha so mushy..hahha. but i love u.
gosh! i cant wait for u to come back home..so we can go do out thang!! hhahaha.. BURN!! hahahaha. k,u take care sweets.
muuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacks!

-nat that bat-

3 more weeeeeeeeeeks~!!!!!! argh..

2005-08-14T19:20:00.000+08:00

only a few more weeks and thats it! its my prelims!!
and just weeks later...the big O's!! damn! time flies..haha..

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well, i've not been going out for the last 4, 5 weeks?and im stillllll surviving!! haha..n wad i do to replace my going out time?? to the gym!! haha.. working out those fats! hahahaa..

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anyways, i cant wait to get the full line thingy on my belly.. heee. its alrdy showing!!!
sheeeesh!! im so happy! hahahahha.. i've always wanted that man! and finally..
thanx to my mom..its b'cuz of her..that she dun allow me to go out for this period of time..hahahah. its b'cuz of her that i can achieve what i've always wanted.. :)

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baby jeri!!!!! call me again! im sorry.. the fone was just beside me but it was on silent mode.. so it didnt have any vibration.. heee..
baby!!! i miss ur voice..

happy birthday!!!

2005-08-09T21:08:00.000+08:00

so it's the nation's birthday..

my schl celebrated national day, my whole class was reali enthu bout it.n i had loads of fun shouting..and oh!COOKE won for the national day dance and rap! hahaha..
zaty was awesome in the singing and the rapping. haha. the acting was funny,cute n all.. and our cheer filled the hall.. i helped them to lead the cohord. it was fun but i kinda lost my voice a little.haha. but it's all good now..

everyone sang and cheered loud and proud..
my class gathered up everyone from the different houses and sang those songs together. u know we were'nt actually singing..but more of shouting plus singing..haah..didnt know how we did that..but..haha..kewl huh..

we took our class pic for this yr's schl year book.
everyone held a balloon each and the pic was black and white. pretty kewl.i like that idea personally. vL came up with it.. shes reali creative and all..n i admire her man..haha.
but oh well...the mood wasnt all that good.. it wld be much better n enjoyable if everyone was cheery and all. but it wasnt...quite alot of ppl were not in the best of moods i shall say.
hmmm,but..i enjoyed myself..
oh..n i reali like revathi's smile.. shes got a goregoeus smile. very photogenic. hee.

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at home.lately...one word, tense.
u know like every small thing here n there. a mini quarrel.
i hope things will be better soon.. :/
please dont go..
dont break down. . .

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im nothing without you..

he's perfect***

2005-07-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm,another week is over. in schl, on friday was cluster arts festival...
didnt reali see much of it.. haha..no big deal actually. haha.
wow..didnt notice how fast the week have gone by.
after schl.. we went in search for a new diary.
its my 5th diary now. and i wanted one that was perfect. smthg unique.
i found him at borders.
although it was quite over my budget.. oh well..haha.. it was worth it. hee...
n thanx babe for the company!! hahaaa..
definitely..i'll stay over once everything is done!! haha.. cant wait! =]

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schl work, tuition work.. blah!! its killing me..
grrr... i hope all this hard work will pay off.bah! its already at the last lap. i wont give up now. no one shld. its crazy.. i've never been so bz before..unlike Nlvls.. the pace wasnt that fast. but its all good with the help of my friends and family. haha.
im sure all of us in 5/2 will pull it through!! =]
oh!! n a very happy happy birthday siti!!

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on friday nite after tuition.. i called up an old friend of mine.. to wish him a happy birthday.
n invited me to his party. haha. i didnt know anyone there though. haha. but i just went.
it didnt turn out so bad.. i made some friends there.. i was lik the youngest there together with this other gurl.. serene. both of us are 17. haha.
the rest were all lik 19 to 23. haha.. fun bunch.
when i got back..it was alrdy lik 11.45pm.. as usual..late.haha..
my mom nagged a lil..
washed up..
went to sleep..
my head felt heavy n a lil dizzy. hmmm..
my friend called me up and talked for awhile.
he knew i was talking rubbish. haha..
oh..n his guitar playing..is kewl.. haha. its reali reali reali nice. haha. i loved it!

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baby jeri!! when are u gonna call!!>??? haha
missss ur voice..

grrrrrr!!

2005-07-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

i just hate it when ppl jus come into my privacy and check.. it jus piss the hell outta me.
humph!!

anyways,for the past few days, its been hectic man!!! reali busy and stuff.. i dun even have time to write in my personal diary..and so many things have happened...good and bad..
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the good..my results. hmmm..though i think they are still not as good as they shld be.. but oh well..its an improvement.
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the bad..hmm..somethings..
haha..confidential.. :)
but i'll have to get over that soon if not my studies will be affected.
mm, feeling crappy..
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jeri..my dearest.. i miss u like crazy!!!! haha.. do call me soon yea. my free incoming are from 7 am to 7 pm..haha.. :)
so yea.u know wad to do.. hmmmm.. =S
but they do charge rite. damn!!! it'll be damn ex!! hai..
but u can try though. :)

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rite now..
im reali stressed out.
help.

working again...

2005-07-16T20:34:00.001+08:00

working hard and all that..yea.. i know its good n all..
but i guess u know ppl have to take breaks rite..
i guess its just the gap of generations btwn mom n me. sometimes i jus wish she can understand me..that wld be the greatest. haha.. =] cuz i dun have to hide anything from her.if only she allows me to tell her stuff.. n if only shes open enough to accept me n the things i tell her.

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man!!! haha.. didnt expect u to catch me.
theres smtg abt u..that makes u special from the others.
ur personality.. character??
i always enjoy talking to u.. u make me laugh all the time..hee. =]
i guess i didnt expected this..
at all..

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mug n mug n mug.. n still more mugging to do. damn!!! i just cant wait for all this shit to be over..
i'll party everyday!!! haha.. freedom at last.. :) hee..
n finally i can rejoin my dance troop!!! they rawk!!!!!
i miss them all so much..
p e r s e v e r a n c e . . .
thats the word..
to all my 5/2 mates!! study hard!!
this is the last lap..n u gotta do it well!!
all of us shall graduate together.. ***not inclusive of ( u know who) ***

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im so gonna get him man!! he gets on my damn bloddy nerve all the time..
n he's a fucking most idotic bias bitch!! worst shit i've ever seen!!
man!! i tell u.. he thinks he's so great n all.. thinking he's always rite. blah n blah.
n if he has the guts to think that everyone likes him...
hey bitch!! ur a sUCKer!!!

STREESSSSing out!!!!

2005-07-07T20:23:00.000+08:00

shesh......its been a long time since i blog in.hee. well,two words.. no time/

like practically everyday im getting screamed at by my mom to get things done.. i mean in a way thats good.cuz someone is pushing me.so i can feel the urgency..
but at the same time..im getting a hell load of stresss..im sure that im not the only one to experience this now.. so yea.

now i have this f&n part B to do.. and its the first time im doing it. n its ultra difficult man!!!!next wed..they'll give us the exam question and we are given a time frame of 4 to 6 hrs only to type out 20 pages to ans that question..

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hey girly.. haha.. it was so much fun with the *SCREAMS* huh!! hahaha.
n the chocolate.n the talks.haha.. it was kewl.. =]
its been quite some time since i've last done that. heee..
thanks babe..

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ok.....normally..for those who know me welll enough. i dun hate a person unless he/she has done smthg to me or to my friend..
SO!!! theres this person i hate!!! i dunno.. maybe is i jus cant stand!!
k... shim is so irritating!!! cant stand shim at all!!!! shim is so bias..the most bias cher ive seen. as in lik..shim can have stuff going on..and lik hurt ppl's feelings and stuff.lik waf man.
talk abt church man!!! ya ya!! so 2 face!

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girls..
in a girl's world.
theres so much of bitching.
fights.
hatred.
jealousy.
loads more....

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awnyways,

I MISS YOU BABY JERI!!!!
heee.....

2005-06-18T12:34:00.000+08:00

WOW!! what a blast in yc..

though the first day kinda sucked. hmm..cuz it rained. and the whole time all of us were in doors. and in particular..my group, we didnt do much at all.. so the first day was a flop.. yep! but we came up with our grp name.. THREE - O.

then here comes the second day..hmm..not bad!! we did absailing and rock climbing.. kewl huh!! i manage to climb to lik 1/3 of the wall. and i think i over strain my muscles. so ya. i dropped. i tried a few more times and i cldnt do it anymore. i was so disappointed.. damn..
ltr we did this activity where everyone of us had to cross wooden platforms which are floating on water. who ever falls in had to do it again. man!!! that thing gave me loads of splinters man. and i got sun burns on my face..haha. all pinkish and stuff. haha..
and that nite we had camp fire..but it wasnt exactly a camp fire. more lik i dunno. but there was no fire. the camp fire was held at the pool. haha. and we had to do a short performance in the pool. haha. it was fun..haha.. it was quite a change for a camp fire. haha.

the third day..
also not bad lar.. but the main highlight of that day was the dance.everyone was excited for the dance. oh..one of the activities were river cascading. it was fun. hah. and man!!! was the sand so soft. i lied down on the sand and my head on a flat rock. and enjoyed the river flowing through my body... so shiok sia!! haha. and one team found out some facial thngy which was reli good for the skin. it was lik sand rubbing on ur face. leave it for a while and once it is washed off. ta da!!! smmooooth skin.. awesome rite!! hahaa.

but besides all the fun.. i was alittle lik sad..
yea..at least i sorted things out..
well,i jus have to accept it. i mean lik i cant do anything abt it..
all i can do now is to forget him.
no point.
next time. i'll wont make it so easy.
adios amigos.

sickk..

2005-06-05T10:36:00.000+08:00

i hate being sick..its so grrrrrr...irritating.

have not come online for a long time.. well,cant be long now.. gotta go to the doc.
so i guesss eating an apple a day.. DOESNT keep the doc away.. DAMN!! its all a fake man.. haha.. here im eating apples dilligently and im getting sick??! wad the shitt hole man!! haha.. oh well. anything can happen.

on the 3 of june, i finally bought my belt and then went for tuition..
guess wadd!! NO ONE was there.. GREAT! they made me rush lik a fucker man..mrs towy told me that they wanted to cancel the class. but HELL NO!! they didnt call me or wad.. fuckers!!!!!
go ahead!! burn in hell.
haha..nah,im not that bad la. but ya..i was pisteddd!!! so i went home.

not a great day after all..

adios amiogs peeps//

relieved..

2005-05-28T21:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm..finally.. the misunderstanding is cleared..
k..thats smthg off my chest now.. and thts onli one of them.. loads more to overcome..
i wanted to tell u myself but i jus didnt had the chance to.. im sorri.. but now u know.. thanx to jeri.. well, im glad its over.. =]

thanx buddy!!! i love ya!!! it was reali sweeet!! thanx baby.. i reali appreciate it..

oh!! haha..yest was a success!!! hahahhahahahaa..had a whole load of fun!! heeeeee.. to those peeps.. yea........u know wad i mean!! hahahaha.. lets dance the nite away.. hahahhahah!!
love ya guys!! mauhahhaha..

n oh!! the other time me n caesy met at sentosa's beach.. n a guy took pic of.. like omg!!!!! JERI!!! u so have to see this.. its reali kewl!! n the bastard,yea..u can see how he looks lik...he's the one who is sitting on a board.. but yea..its reali nice!!! hahahahaahhah!! go see k!! hahha.. this is the web site..
http://www.geocities.com/pleiria/pldoc5pic.html
hee..n u can seee meee!! hahahah.. n tell me how u find it.. hahha.. by my guest book!! haha.. =]

hmm..my june 11 is coming up!! so exciting!! hahah..
cant wait!! heeee...

u know..i jus hate it when lik a guy says lik..oh yea.i lik u and stuff..but lik i cant feel it. damn.. its so shitt. i dunno..
maybe single is the best.
unless someone somewhere can prove me wrong.

adios.

results results results..

2005-05-26T19:05:00.000+08:00

damn!!! my teacher called my mom up yest. n lik i was at dance prac. oh!!it was gooood!! i love my team man..they're so kewl. haha.. i had so much fun! oh yea!! hahaa.

anyway,when i came back..my mom scolded me.n told me tht i cldnt join the dance.n tht i cld do the up coming dance on the 11 june. its a performance. hee. so excited. we maybe even sponsored by adidas!!!! heee. oohh yea!! haha.. but lik i cant do the other dance which is a tv programme.. n i've been training hard for tht!! damn!! but i konw.. everyone keeps on telling me set ur PRIORITIES>...... yea yea..i know..

well,its FIVE more mths b4 the damn Os..

hmm..to my dear friend.. its all a misunderstanding.. i dun wanna hurt ur feelings.. i love u and i dun ever wanna lose a great friend as such. pls..i wanna clear things up. i dun wan this cold shoulder thing. its killing me!!!!!!! and pls try to go for yc.. it wont be fun without youu!!
im sorry if u had the wrong idea.

DANCE!!

2005-05-21T17:35:00.000+08:00

i MADE the dance team!!! hahahx... omg!! so happpyy!!

heyy..thanx for accompanying me throughout the dance audition.. love ya!! hahax.. =]

but besides the fun and all..my results suck!!! my mid yr was reali bad bad..n surprisingly my mom n dad was pretty kewl with it..although with a scolding..no doubt..
we understand each other much better.well, though im grounded and stuff.haahx.. yea. and not allowed to use the com for i dunno.. gosh!!
my dad was lik, nat.. the two of u now [my sister n me] have ur mind on ur own..and all we can give u are good adivce.. and the rest is up to u.. hmmm,i guess its true..cuz both of us are reali old enough to choose our decisions. of course not all.. but i guess most. plus...im gonna be paying eveything i want by myself from next yr onwards.. HALP!!

this yr is gonna be different for me..cuz i have dance now and my o lvls. so i have ta commit if i wanna do dance. so i guess no going out that often. sacrifices... hai. but it'll all pay off..
i hope i'll be pick to dance for the up coming performance..on the 11th of june. hee... =S
nervous man!!

jeri baby..dun worry.cuz when u come back//we'll rock the floor!! hahahx..
love ya lots!! muacckss..

screwed up.

2005-05-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

wad the shit man!!!

i always get into shit with my dad. cuz lik i wanna download stuff but something comes popping out!!! its reali damn irritating!! how!! i need bryce now!!!! bryceeeeeeeee! he's the best i know in comps.. hahax..reali.

i've been going out for the last two days with my friends..hahhax. it was fun!!! hahax. we watched kingdom of heaven and a horror movie. the new released one. amityville horror. hmmm,i rate it 3 out of 5 pts. hahhax. but like there is lik no stupid solution to the problem.. so lame. but there were lots and lots of shocks..hahahx. k,its kinda freaky. but yeaa.hope it doesnt stay in my shitty head.

and lik i was posted this reali difficult question.. and i reali dunno how to ans the question. i dunno wad are they thinking.. hmm.. i'm that kinda gal who doesnt like to hurt my friends. but if the guy or gal..(mstly it wld be more to guys) irritatates the shit outta me and if i dunno him well, i hammer the shit outta him too..cuz i cant stand ppl like that. tell u wad happen ltr. back to the topic, ya..so i dunno how to ans.
if like someone asks you, who do u prefer to go out with.. i mean like both have their good pts and stuff.. but lik.. i wldnt know how to ans.. =S
sorry..

well, now that mid yrs are over.. i can chill for awhile..til monday and get back to work.. mug mug n mugg. hhaahx..i hope i wld still have the perseverence to continue. and wont let my mom down again.. =S

and i still cant stand herrr!! damn! shes lik all holy and stuff.. but still(grrrrrrrr!!!) shes on my nerve!! lik that time she didnt wanna tick my attendence cuz i went out of the class early. wtf rite!! shitthole man!! fucker!

ok..ok.. gtg..

hey baby jeri,
i love youuuu!!!!

peace!!!

2005-05-11T13:34:00.000+08:00

man!! its so damn peaceful at home rite now. no one at home. jus me and the music. hahax.
and of course the books...

cant wait!! tmlis my last paper!! and i have 5 days of hols.hahax. kewl huh!! but it aint over..its onli the beginning.. the end is yet to come.. shesh!! i still have 6 more mths to go?? yeaa. arnd there..

hmm..yest, my bro and i fought again... he was irritating as usual and stubborn.. hai..
long story..forget it..too lz.. haha.

hey jeri,i hope everything btwn u and ur darling will be ok.. =]
i guess u know ya..worried and stuff is normal..but sometimes i guess like u keep on asking him where is he and stuff..he gets kinda irritated? i dunno.. im jus saying.. i might not be rite at all.. pls correct me if i am k.. i dun wan a misunderstanding over the net.cus its harder to sort out a misunderstanding over the net than to face to face u know.. so yeaa.
and the dream u had..yeaa!! freaking man! hahahx.. bu kinda kewl.. hee.

i read ur blog..yeaa. u did mention abt me.. a tINEY winy part!!! yea..so kind..tooooo kind..
hmmm,i hope i dun disappoint my mom again..of my results.
and ever since i became close with my mom..i feel better sharing stuff with her. hahhax. hope i can keep the trust..

yay!i finally got my blog a nicer skin..hahahx. pretty cute too! i like it! thanx to micheelllle!!!
thanx babe.. =]

hahax. i suppose to be studying for my last paper tml.. bio and chem paper 1/
i better do well in it man.. k.. gotta mugg!!

boiehsd

2005-05-09T19:45:00.000+08:00

man!! its been a long long time since i blog...
hahahx. well,its stress,stress and more stress..
pressure..blah n blah..

its the damn exam week.. and its finaaalllly gonna be overrr!!! hahahx. then gonna go tanning!! in sentosa!!! sat morning! cant wait! heeee... oooo yea! hahhax. =] soo funnN!!

anyways, i think im gonna do shiit hole badly for mid yr la!! shitttooos.. hahhax.
my f&n..hmmm..it was an 2 hr paper..hahah..i had enough time to sleep for almst an hr!! hahahx. dieeee.. :(

hellllppp!

to youu**
it isnt rite for us to do such things..
do it with the one whom u love the most.

a stupid day.

2005-04-26T20:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm..woke up in the morning as usual// went to church..
went to schl..

u know is like.someone treats u nice then lik dun reali bother abt u the nxt time. its kinda confusing.. cuz i dunno wads up in her mind.

today was practical..damn! it was a total messs!!! damn disappointed! like when i reached schl i didnt realised that my salmon wads missing until i took out he things to put in the frigde..

it was lik this.
after seminary..i wanted to go downstairs to the second lvl to get my f&n stuff.but when i reached the staircase..all the lights were switched off.n it was lik pitch dark./ i hurried down the stairs to the second floor.. i grabbed all the ingredients and chucked them into the bag that i had. i wasnt reali thinking straight cuz i was afraid that they might lock up the door and secondly it was damn dark! so i took everything and rushed down..

i talked a little and headed for schl with cheryl. =]

n i had mass stretch today..omg!!!we did like almst 100 sqwads!! i almost died man!! cuz i didnt bring my PE shirt..i forgot!! mr lee ( "mighty mouse") said that those who dun bring PE shirts will have to do 10 sqwads each..per class. so lik if 10 ppl didnt bring. then the class will have to do 100 sqwads..
so our class...16 ppl didnt bring!! hahaahax.veri goooood!!
though our class didnt do 160..but it was bad enough alrdy..at 100
all of us were all sweaty n stuff after the whole damn thing. waa!!! for the rest of the day,many of my class gals kept complaining how weak their thighs were.including me. hahahx.

anyways, after the mass stretch, the f&n gals went to put their things in the fridge.and it was then i reallse that my salmon was missing.. i panic lik hell!!!!

then recess i managed to get out of schl. of course with the permisson of ms kang.
claudia went with me to find ms kang.. so sweeeeet of her!! thanx babe!!! muaccks! hahax. anyways, ya. i took a cab to church. hahax.
got it and came back.

i got off the taxi opposite schl then crossed the bridge.omg..guess wads next..the gate was lock. soooooo..i didnt give a damn..i was too tired to walk all the way back to the main gate..so i climbed over.n ms kang wanted me to report to her before her lesson in the threatre..soooooooo..i ran up to the damn threatre! sheeeesh!!! jus tell me. how bad can my stupid day get rite! grrr.. so anyways,i was in time. =] thats a good thing. but i was perspiring lik a mad cow!!! goood shitt!! i ta han like hell!!

after geog class was f&n prac.and we cldnt be late.so the f&n gals gotta run..cuz our prac had a time limit.
during the prac, i was so scared..cuz i cld remember the recipe!!!!! fuck ritte!! hai..
i carried on with it anyhow.
then it came to the last part.everyone was alrdy finishing and i was still at the second last one. it was a three course meal. and everyone else's was nicer!!! hai...

today i rushed here and there. so shacked!! and wad a relief that the whole prac is over!!!

my mid yrs are coming soon!! the first papers are eng and social!
god..please bless me!!

baby buddy**

shut!!

2005-04-19T18:21:00.000+08:00

man..today was like asking ppl to shuddup every where.. first was in the canteen.i think it was a sec 3 who screamed in a damn high pitched voice// and i shouted shuddup la!!
then ltr when we were walking back to class.a sec 4 screamed this time and parvo shouted shut up la fuckers! damn irritating la!!
ltr, when we were walking up for math class, we passed the photo copying shop. then she heard this girl//she kept on wining..n bev got damn pist she told the girl off. shut the shiit up la.
hahahx. we were like..so annoying.

jeri

2005-04-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

jeraldine lim xi ting!!!

where are youu.....

hee// =]

love ya babe!!!

byotch

2005-04-14T17:45:00.001+08:00

another day passes by.

i jus fought with my brother..so,not in a good mood at all. he is blardy rude la. n he loves to get ppl damn fucking angry with him but he is damn scared of ppl wacking him up. wtf rite. anyways,he got on my damn blardy nerve la.omg!!! reali sometimes i jus cant stand him at all. i told him that i hated him.cuz he never means it when he says sorry. he jus says it and do it again. so fuck. i hate it. even guys. when they say smthg but never do. damn irritating. i told him that i dun wanna acknowlegde him as my bro. n i walked off.

dont u jus hate it when some guy msges u and says, hey u wanna go to ( that place), cuz i cant get anyone to go with me.. eh!!bastard! i aint no spare tyre man. no way i will go with u. nowadays guys are so not sensitive towards girl's feelings anymore. how fucked-up can they get. these are all spoken from my experiences. so not applying to all.
i guess no one is perfect. no one can replace my perfect guy.

well,schl jus keeps building up the stress. hmm, at least there are my lovely bunch of friends. claudia, parvo.estee..vL, bev and roz. hahaax. even my peeps sitting arnd my area...like, louisa, deqi, felicia, rung, candice, ivy, poh lin, alicia, and all..hahax.they are a great bunch. always laughing. hhhax.this yr i jus luvvre my class. so muchh of class spirit.and unity.haha.. this yr will be a great grad. hhaax. and this sat is anne of green gables. hee.so fun..all of us are dressing up..formal. hee. cant wait. =))

wondering what is a family for?

akng'lkewrngt

2005-04-13T18:30:00.000+08:00

damnn.. got so much stuff to do nowadays. f*K up stress larr. i hopee i dun get burn out in the middle of the journey. im lik so tired in schl and stuff...n i study hhard for my test but still fail.. damnn..so shiit.

i dunno wad he's trying to do// one min he pops oouuta nowhere and says hi..and then like dun hear him for awhile..then come back again. wadever larr.

im soo..jus so waiting for this yr to be over man..

.stuggle.struggle.struggle. and there's no turning back.........................

gotta workk that asss!!!! heeee... \

retarded snail...... hahax../

abuuuuu..

2005-03-28T20:00:00.000+08:00

i heard he's attached again..hahahax.. well, thats good for him. as for me..i dun bother this yr. this yr..natalie song is a blardy nerd!! hhahax. and i hope i get in to a good course in the poly. ohh my gooodiess.. me n my mother..bondingg!! hahahx. went out twice with her two days in a row. bought stuff. talked. at least i gain back my mom's trust. cuz its not easy to get it back. i lost it for lik 5 times? i let her down many times. but i hope i wont let her down again..

too bad bitch.

two dates in a row..hahax..

2005-03-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

so kewl..hahhahx. two dates in a row huh.. hahahhx. today and yest. i went shopping with my mom.. it was lik a shopping spree for my mom..cuz shes going back to work. its good and bad.

hmm,the mid yrs are jus arnd the corner..peeps!! study hard!! do NOT slack! hahax. =]

so much shit is happening at home..feel so fucked up.. hai.. got this and that. i want this yr to be over. and then i can lead my life..

18** aint gonna support me anymore.

fuck that shit.

my boo**

2005-03-14T19:37:00.000+08:00

all of us had fun.. we danced and took pictures.. hee. i danced with him too.. man.its been a long long time since we've danced. i missed the feeling and now its back. ohh..n i love this song.. **let me love youu** everytime the song plays it reminds me of u.

my babe in schl..hee. keep persevering. ya!! =] woah..lik this week im actually following my schedule..hahhax. amazing. miracle. hahahx..

u'll always be my boo..

__so into youu**

love ya lots!!

pooooooofy

2005-03-10T09:50:00.000+08:00

man..its gonna be a LONG day in schl from nxt week onwards. grr.. parv is sitting nxt to me rite now acting lik a retarded lunatic. hahahhahahx.. shes so likes the key board man..hahahx. retarded rite..hahahx. anyways..me, vl, roz n casey are thinking of whether to go to yue wei's party anot. hmm, or to estee's party planned for her mom..aww.so sweet..

oh.my progress report was jus given back to us..and OHH..wow.. veri ggood results wad.. flying colours all..hahhax..

k,im in schl now doing my f&n..hahahx.suppose to be doing my research..but OHH>. wad am i doing.. ahhahahx. k..gotta get back man.. =]

nat.

__so into youu**

hush.

2005-03-09T19:42:00.000+08:00

i jus got this new book from borders and i cant stop reading it now..hee.. its abt this serial killer..going round killing ppl and only one person can stop him. well,that is i dont know yet.. hahhax. anyways, my dear jeri.. i know how u feeel over the other side. with no one to accompany you and stuff. but sometimes we cant choose where we want to go..we dont have a choice. hey!but i WILL always be there for you. not physically but mentally supporting you..always. lets hope our relationship stays strong. and keep in touch ya. =]

oh no.. the parent teacher meeting is this coming fri..i hope mr chua doesnt say anything emm.. not nice.. if not my bday party that i wanna go to is cancelled. so ....

+burn+

2005-03-05T12:15:00.000+08:00

next week my mom is meeting up with mr chua..my form teacher.. argh. hope he doesnt say anything bad.. hahax. hmm, i had better do smthg abt my studies.its reali going down hill.. my geog syllabus is alrdy going to be finished..but hmmm,nthg is in my thick skull of mine. goodness.. hai.

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna changeI do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby,
I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When the feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burnLet it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We knew it been through
Let it burnLet it burn
Gotta let it burn

****so into youu****

+byotch+

going down hill.

2005-03-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

oh my gawrdo..my results are lik going down real badly.. my math..oh.. 4/40. eng 5/25..hmm. hahahx. wad results am i having man..hahax.that was the lowest ever man.. hahax.but surprisingly..i enjoy social studies!!hahax. fear factor's lesson!!hahax..though he is a fear factor to my class, 5n2, he is reali a good teacher.. and im improving in it!

this yr my class is united man..hahahx. the other time in the hall when we won the chinese new yr decorations among the upper sec class, all of us stand,cheered and clapped..hahax. and even when our class monitresses went to collect their certificates, we did the same. hahax. it was so fun..hahax.
i hope this yr's graduation will be goood..hahahx.

it wont be the same feeling anymore. its also kinda weird talking to youu. we've got nthg to talk abt. i guess we shld jus let go. *******.

life goes on.

2005-03-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

hmm,so she left..and i didnt get to send her off..grr.. my mother didnt allow me to. well, jeri..pls write the last pages of the book..abt wad happen k..hee..thanx babe. eh byotch!!muz write comments k..for mee!! =] i miss ya alrdy.. seems quite without u arnd. im lik on the com now doing my f&n and my cme..hahahx. muz email me asap k!! hee.
oh ya..thanx for the msg.. now my turn.. thanx jeri, for being there for me all the time. i always know that i can count on youu anytime. thanx for going through all those shit with me. go clubbing with me..hahahx. ur foreverr and will always be my dancing buddy. without u is different. now i'll wonder wads it like without u in church..who knows.. i maybe quieter?
oh you know wad. yue wei is coming back tml, thurs [3rd march] at 1 am. hmmm, i dunno wad to do. jeri..have a safe trip there..anything jus email, or write a comment k.. love ya dear.. muacks!

things happened in the past. some cant be forgotten..and some can be.. if u ask me, i dunno but i wldnt wanna be in a relationship.. i cant afford to be hurt anymore.. argh.
it sucks.he sucks.
single*****

shes going

2005-02-27T21:05:00.000+08:00

shes going..on tuesday!!!!agrh! im gonna miss her lik hell..today in church eveyone was suppose to say smthg nice to her.when it came to my turn.i immediately started to tear.i cldnt hold back my tears.. now i know why my mom doesnt allow me to go to the airport.if not the airport if gonna be flooded..hahahhax.anyways, i made her this thing that im suppose to give her on tuesday b4 she goes..but i haven finish it yet!!!! how!!! oh man..so rush..hai..i scared it'll not be nice..today ling gave her a friendship ring..its nice man..hahax.

oh man!!!oh the fri when me and jeri sneaked out, we had loads and loads of fun.at first we still cldnt decide if we wanted to go anot..then i persuaded her n we sneaked out..hahahx. =p im glad we did..if not we wld have regreted it so so much..on that day i met some new ppl too..hahahax..kewl.. =] they were reali funny.. n we took pics..im so gonna get the pics from jocelyn!!hahahx. oh..we went to cheekys.all of us were at the pole..me,jeri and jocelyn did pole dancing..hahhahx. so fun. and we burned some gals!!!!again!hahahx.. then all the guys went up too..man..it was crowded..but it was damn fun..we tried to get into dbl o but cldnt..got kinda bounced out..hahahx.. =# heeee.. n lik medhi's room caught on fire..hhahax. it was damn funny.. =p med put his bro's shirt on it..and it turned into ashes.. hahahahahahahhahahahx..
we sneaked back in safe and sound..hahahx. and we had only 2 hrs of sleep la!!!! cuz i had to wake up at 8am in the damn morning.. gosh!!! i was like a stupid damn zombie!!!!

count calories

2005-02-23T20:47:00.000+08:00

man..i give up on counting calories man.hahahx. i suppose to be on a protein diet. but i cant do it properly..hahahx..
hmm,tml is our sportsday meet. and im so excited..our cooke cheer team is so ready. i hope i jus dont screw up when im shouting out the cooke house cheer before and after our dance.u know when people are nervous they tend to forget things..or will have a blank out?? ya.. im afraid it'll happen to me.
when will you be back? im kinda mixed up..im now in a state where. i miss someone and im beginning not to miss someone. i dunno wads up in his mind. he's always so lik not sharing how he feels. seriously..it kinda irritates me sometimes. but i duno why i still love him and miss him.
jeri..its only a few more days..and ur leaving!! no!!!!!!!!!! hmmm..i can alrdy imagine my reaction when that day comes. sigh..so hard to let go huh.. well,i guess its natural..anyone and everyone will be like that.. hee.. u know ur the only one i can tell my whole shit. and who can take all my nonsense. who know me in and out.wad i'll do next. can irritate the shit out of me but in the end still know how to make me laugh.. woah..amazing..hahahahaahahhhax. and who can jus cheer me up on the spot.know wad to say exactly and make me smile. hahahx. i thank youu for EVERY big and small thing u did for me. i treasure them alot. though we've said reali stupid stuff to each other but we still sort things out and all will be well..love ya babe.

another day.

2005-02-21T20:50:00.001+08:00

gosh!!!! i spent so hell much time on typing this and i pressed one wrong key button and now..all is gone. very smart wad..too smart. well, another day.. oh shit.. on fri,18 feb. it was so shit la. someone told my mom that i was in town. wad the hell rite. she said someone saw me intown.but that cant be cuz i was in raffles place. at those office buildings. hmmm..must be wondering y i was there rite. cuz my kor,greg.wanted me to have a reserved jobb. lik for next yr. and by the time nxt yr comes..i'll already have some money on my own alrdy. i'll be working under him. he's reali caring..he told me that from the day he said that he will be my bro..he swore to himself that he will take good care of me..this is our 5th yr already. he has a girlfriend,mei fen.. she's reali nice..hahhax. me n her are kinda close. and she knows greg cares abt me alot. ya. and for those whos mind set abt him haven change..well, i cant change their mind.but i personally know that he has changed...for the better of course. b'cuz of his gf i bet..hee. but i mean of course also for himself. =] yrs passed and i grew to love him. i know he will always be there for me.
and like,so much things happened over the weekend..and my mom got kinda pist at me. lik i was home late.cuz of cheer. but i didnt dare to tell her. cuz i know she will say no.. then on that veri night i had a church fireside.but i didnt go.and she found out. some bitch told her la. dunno who the hell it was. hai. on sat night. woah!! it was reali close..but we did it again. me and jeri managed to sneak out..hee. *wink wink* jeri..u know wad i mean!!
and to jeri jeri jeri.. ur leaving in a weeks time. im gonnnnna misssssss u lik hell.. dunnno im gonna do without u. we been stuck together ever since dude!!! hahahx. all the trouble we got into. the quarrels and the small and big fights..hahahx. the outings that we had..ya[u know!!]heee.. the secrets ,the fun.laughter. they're all unforgetable!!!!!!!
babe...we must keep in touh k..we ccant afford to lose our relationship..that we have kept for the last 17 years. imagine that. and probably 21..u can come back.and we can move out together..hee.. =] i love u!!!! muack muacks!!

sleeping again!!

2005-02-18T13:45:00.000+08:00

i selpt in f&n class again..hahax. i selpt for like i dunno..almost 15 mins? and my teacher didnt ask me to wake up..[wonders why] =S
nthg much in schl..jus the usual..
well,i miss him..i dunno if he does feel the same though.
dont know why i still feel for him..i guess its jus a feeling.. i hope i'll get over it soon..
my cuzzin is leaving sooooon..in lik less than 2weeks time? humph.. i feel damn sad..i mean.i tell her almost everything.hmm,im gonna miss her dearly.. since young we were reali close..
shes gonna be there for at least 5 yrs..and most probably staying there.and wont be coming back..sigh. i reali hope my relationship with her dont drift as much..
thanks parv for listening to my whole bunch of stuff..hahax. and oh ya!! im stillllll waiting for my prezie!!!!heeeeee...

sick again..

2005-02-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

coughing the whole day sucks.. frm bad to worse. last night i took this pink tablet for my cough.and at 12mn, i realized that i had rashes..cuz my face itched. and it wasnt til 1am then i cld slp. grrrr.. i tossed arnd in bed cuz i kept coughing.
anyways,enough of my coughing hahax.
when i talked to my friends abt him..they were lik,please nat..wad are u doing..he did all that to u and u still think of him? why!!
k,confession..hahax.i still feel for him.and i dunno why but i cant let him go.its hard!!!!grrrrrr.. but he has another gal..my personal ans..cuz we were close and we had that reali special connection.but some stuff went wrong.he told me that i didnt put in effort.i was damn hurt man.. hmm,i dunno wad was he hiding or wad.but i cant forget him until now..grrr.. i mean i usually wld forget the guy by now..but y him?? hai..i guess theres smthg abt him..hmm.. =S well,lets see.. time will tell..
ooh!!mm,on valentines day.. someone asked me to be his.the thing is..i wont be commited,i aint ready dude..and my heart wont fully be urs.my heart is still somewhere else..